I'm not a fan of the whole "let's look back at the last year" thing. Maybe it's an "I'm getting older" thing, but I just don't feel compelled to reflect and make New Year's resolutions the way I used to when I was younger.
But it's kind of hard NOT to reflect on your own year when everyone else is doing it. I'm aware this is a terrible excuse to do something, but when friends are posting their accomplishments and reflections, from the superficial to the more honest intakes of themselves, it's hard not to think about your own life.
So, without further ado...
2017 In Numbers
- 3 Countries Visited (1 New)
- 11 States traveled to
- 11 NEW cities explored
- 70+ Flights flown
- 50,000 Miles across the sky
- 3 companies with a status
- 1 New (US) National Park
- 2 Podcast live tapings shows seen
- 1 New Music Festival
- 5 Friends that I met through travel who I got to reconnect with in person
- 17 Books Read
- Unknown number of new beers tried
2017...The First time...
- I have lived in the same place for more than a year
- I have worked at a job for a year and still really really like it
- I missed a flight
- I stayed single for a year and took the time to work on myself
- (In a long time) I took an actual vacation to relax
- I got "held" at the airport and questioned before entering a country
- I wrote and called my congress-people multiple times almost every month
Now, I didn't really make resolutions in 2017 because too many things were changing (new apartment, new job, new relationship status) and I didn't want to put the pressure on myself.
Also, I didn't know what I wanted to accomplish. Past resolutions have just been a checklist of things to tick a box on. But there wasn't really anything that I HAD to check off this year. I just wanted to figure out my life. I just wanted to...live for a little. And so...that's what I did. I lived this year. I just DID. And it was pretty nice.
I feel like I grew A LOT. I became more confident in myself. I took a stand more, became more vocal and more secure in myself. I traveled A LOT. And subsequently, was on my own A LOT. I learned to love being around me (for the most part). I didn't have boxes to tick off, but I feel a lot different ending the year as oppose to how I started.
But, as much as it was a relief to not be worried about checking things off a list, or wondering whether I was accomplishing all the things I wanted to, I'm still me at my core. I'm still a planner, a goal setter, a person who wants to accomplish things. I'm still competitive and regretfully, a person who compares themselves to others.
Yes, 2017 was a nice reprieve from the stress of planning, goal setting, and box checking. But in some ways, not having specific goals to strive for kind of made me stressed! Lol. Dumb, I know.
So, for 2018, my "resolution" or whatever, is to figure out what exactly I want my goals to be. This last year, while again, a relief, also felt like I was floundering at times too. What was wrong with me? How could I not have a goal? Was I lazy? Uninspired? How could I not have anything I was striving for? Reaching for?
Yesterday I tried to write down "resolutions" or "goals" for this year. Most are not what experts consider "good" goals. They aren't specific, they aren't measurable. But they are real. They are actually what I want to accomplish. Things like:
- Figure out a way to relax and be a bit more mindful (meditation? yoga?)
- Get more in shape (ha! most non-measurable goal ever)
- Figure out what I want to work on (side hustle? what am I really passionate about?)
- Take more time for me (go for walks, read more, go write at a coffee shop)
So, we'll see how it goes. Maybe this year leads me to write more on this blog, or on Medium. Maybe it leads somewhere else. I just hope that it leads somewhere specific so I can start striving again.
What are you striving towards in 2018?